Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth. ~Benjamin Disraeli
So here's my truth in its rawest form....

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

The confines of fear

Running away is easier
Leaves a different mess
I can’t fake smiles anymore
It gets old quick
And wears on my soul
This air is thick
I feel it pushing on me
But the wind racing through the window chases it away
The speed surpasses all the things that eat away at me
Just the sound of Indie Rock
And the thoughts in my head
             That fade slowly
                     Until I silence them away
Maybe if I pretend they don’t exist they’ll really be gone…
Even for a minute
       I need some solace
Nope, that didn’t work
Just focus on the road
And the trees whizzing by
I don’t want to be here anymore
I’m tired of being scared
     Of myself
      Of others
       Of being trapped
        Of my soul’s hunger
I need to break free from these confines of fear

Thursday, June 13, 2013


I’m addicted to him
Not in an obsessive way, or even in a sexual way
I’m addicted to the way all my problems and anxiety seem to fade away when he is around
I can be having a total meltdown
And when he grabs my hand
               I’m relaxed
He’s my medicine
(Who am I kidding? He’s my drug)
He saves me from myself
Not every secret is bad